Well, it is Friday. That is reason enough to celebrate. I got to talk to my little brother today and that made my happy and made me smile. I miss home... Well mainly I miss my family at home. I wish they all lived closer- that would make me much happier!
I am bummed because I am a slacker and the Mother's Day card that I sent to my mom will get there late! Ughh! What is wrong with me! I am slipping!
I read somewhere today something to the affect of...
Don't be so caught up in your own life and worries that you miss seeing that someone else really needs a hand or a shoulder to lean on.
Just like a giant 2x4 to the forehead! Ok, I am back out of my fog... For the moment at least. I heard from a friend today and am so sad because her mom passed away unexpectedly. She was a kind and loving woman and I have known her for a long time. She got cancer about a year ago and when through Chemo. She was doing really well and then had a sudden heart attack... so sad.
I watched the video of another sweet spirit that my mom had sent to me. I just can't get the picture of her beaming smile out of my mind's eye. Every picture displayed a smile from one corner of her face to the other... Just beautiful. I wonder if people can see down from Heaven and know how much people here miss them... Even if they didn't know them very well? Or if God just keeps it all separate... I really don't know.
No word from our case worker today. We sometimes get updates on Fridays but I guess that there were none to send today. We are still waiting to hear from the foster mom... Sighs. Would have been really nice to hear before Mother's Day this weekend... Will this be our last year without children on Mother's Day? Or will I be writing on this Blog 365 days from now and still searching for our children? I guess only God knows and that will have to be good enough.
I am a little bummed because Kara and I had been on a mission to find the best little black baby doll for the little girl. We found a great little store that supports local artists and they are having a HUGE craft fair in Portland tomorrow. We were originally planning on going to the fair to see all the new dolls that vendors had made, but now we feel a little hesitant. What if we keep buying stuff for a child we don't adopt... But at the same time, what if we don't go and then we do adopt them and wish we had gotten her the doll? Sighs. It really is such a fork in the road. Do we walk a couple of miles to maybe have to turn around and come back? Or do we stand still at the fork until we have a clearer picture. Good question. If you have the answer, do let me know.
We were going to BBQ tonight but it is so rainy that I don't know if we will do that or not.
I was just remembering last July 4--- We got a message from a friend asking if we would adopt her baby when she was born. Well, it never ended up happening and so I am wondering if this year July 4 we will have any news, any kids, or just be in exactly the same place we were last year. Crazy, right? Right.
Off to do some laundry and clean a bit before the weekend starts.
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